by DALEY Tue Mar 03, 2009 3:45 pm
sorry, took off for awhile. Mish, u talk about intuition..it is the greatest gift a woman can have, a true story;
My good friend from college days is called Susie. We had many an adventure when we were in college. Some very funny, and some we look back at and wonder how we made it thro. alot of our friends did not make it. I go married, devorced, and susie finally got married to a rock musican who is a very good man, and puts upwith her nearotic being. I guess I can say I am a bit neorotic too. anyway, he doesn't play music anymore, and he is quite the bread winner today..a sports producer.
anyway, we used to go and see Tommy andhis band play at this dive in New Hampshire. the bar tender had been flirting with me for months. One nite he asked me to go to his place to get something. I said yes without thinking. When I got into his car, I realized I hadn't told Susie or Tommy that I was leaving, but he didn't let me get out and tell them. A fear started to grow inside my stomach. We were driving down this long dark wooded road, and I flipped out...jumped out of the car. He begged me to come back. i scared him. He promised to take me back to bar. I told him I had no fear about jumping out of car again, and that he scared me. I think I freaked him out too. anyway to make a very long story short, I got back to bar and told Tommy, tommy said I was foolish. A year lady, he was picked up for rape. I had been raped at 21 yrs old, I guess my instincts kicked in. Since then, Tommy and Susie r very careful about whom they introduce me to.
I am fat and ugly today, so I really don't think anyone would try anything with me. Ian's father used to run around so my luck with men has been very strained. Ian is kinda mad at me, and sometimes blames me for the devorce. His father said I was a cold fish..maybe...life does alot to one.
I have been lucky tho, no one has tried to kill me, and my son has been OK, but I can't say that for those poor women, children that have been hurt by men or even women who r their mothers for
God's sake. I don't want to ever understand it, I don't want to come close to seeing what they see, it must be hell!
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